November 12, 2015

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Cris,

 

I've made so many mistakes and I'm really ashamed at the way I've behaved and mistreated you. 

 

You've shown me nothing but kindness and it truly breaks my heart that I have ever been selfish, mean and reckless in your presence. 

 

I love you so much and I really don't deserve the answered prayer you've been. I'm just so bent out of shape that I didn't meet you sooner, when I could have given you the total support and love you have somehow astonishingly been deprived of.

 

Call yourself a fixer upper, but goddamit you have a sturdy foundation, and as far as compassion goes, I say you are a historic landmark. You will be cherished and remembered, and should be photographed and restored to preserve the lovely image that you are. Perhaps I am exhausting the metaphor, but I do sincerely feel home in your arms.

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-Jeremy Randolph Shaffer (October 6, 1981- February 5, 2016)

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